Thursday, August 8, 2013

Something is brewing..

So maybe this is a little bit of a rant and a little bit of trying to sort my thoughts out. We shall see.
This morning I decided to take my kids on a "nature walk" around our perfectly HOA kept up neighborhood.
Without fail, almost every person I happened to pass by on the walk did a double take, or simply said out loud, "wow, you have your hands full!"
This is nothing new to me.
Somewhere around the having two kids and being pregnant I gave up the frustration of stranger's comments about God's choice to bless me with three kids by 30.
Oh, and the fact that I'm 5'1" on a good day doesn't help. Some how, my small stature makes people think I'm "one of the kids." I can testify that my smile lines prove otherwise along with the gray hairs I cover up every 8 weeks. And I still need to get those darn glasses ordered. Did you know that after having three kids I now need glasses!? Anyways..
I've honestly learned to smile and agree, realizing that their comment is not intended to make fun, but that in most cases, they truly do not understand how I do it.
Today I got to thinking.
It would be awesome to have a planned out response to this never ending comment. Something along the lines of, yes, my hands are full, but that is part of what keeps me leaning on Jesus DAILY. I have 3 little lives that are in my hands to teach, love, and grow. That's a BIG responsibility if you ask me, and the most important one after being wife to my awesome hubby. Indeed my hands are full. But it is NOT in my strength that I get by. I take no credit. And a lot of days I fail. As I yell at my kids to stop yelling.. you know.. those kinds of things.
Then, who KNOWS the types of conversations I might get into just by going into any public place!
Almost makes me want to have another one.
My "almost" lies not in the idea of having more children to raise in our home, but the idea of actually bringing them into the world. Okay, that was just a weird way of saying that our family has been seriously talking about the idea of adoption for some time now.
I can't help but wonder what the comments would be like if I were to add on another child to the mix. {insert devious laugh.. hehehe}
I honestly feel like the Lord has shown me a lot of things in just the last 6 months. I told my cousin yesterday, "I feel like I have a new brain."
It's really weird.
I've felt the Lord move me.. wake me up.. I don't know how else to put it.
I read Kisses From Katie {Katie Davis}, Radical {David Platt}, and now Seven {Jen Hatmaker} all within the last few months. Oh and Feminine Appeal twice.
I'm not kidding you, they are game changers my friends.
When you start to get a glimpse of the WORLD VISION and our responsibility as Christians and as one of the wealthiest nations on the ol' globe today, IT CHANGES YOU.
"Love your neighbor as yourself." Mark 12:31
I have no idea what God has up his sleeve at this point with this "new brain" if you will.. but I can attest that the desire and the burden for change is getting bigger and bigger.
By change I mean, a radical change in the way we "do life."
A change in how we see those in need around us.
A change in how we spend every $1 that the Lord blesses us with.
A change in how we see God.
He's bigger than most of us give him credit for. Myself included.
Anyways, much more to come on this heart change going on, but my small window of time before 3 smiling faces greet me is about to run dry and I still haven't gotten out of my pj's or cleaned up the paint from the carpet from this morning's "rock painting" project.
Okay, that was quite a ramble.
But something is brewing.. that's all I can say.


  1. Excited to see what God has in store. =)

  2. I'm glad you're able to disregard people's comments. Three kids is not that many, for one thing (my husband is one of FIVE boys!), and you are an awesome mama! Second, I LOVE "Feminine Appeal"--started reading it in high school, and I pick it up occasionally now. But you've inspired me: that's the next thing I'll (re-)read!

    It's awesome to see God working in our lives--excited to see what plans he has for you!


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